I just deleted five years worth of blog posts. And it was bittersweet.
I've been doing a lot of that lately; deleting fives year's worth of things. Pictures. Facebook posts. E-mails. Memories. Oh, wait. Can't delete memories. That'd be nice though, wouldn't it?
I went from being a military spouse and being surrounded by post-life and other mil-spouses, military jargon, TDYs, PCS season, the commissary, Tricare, and general military life, to living in my old bedroom in my parent's home, trying to figure out what in the heck I'm going to do with my life. You're not supposed to start over when you're 26 (almost 27, mind you). I know that's still technically young, but I never felt so old before. I think I'm just tired. That's to be expected though, right? Divorce is tiresome.
Ya know what's really frustrating? Having to get rid of pictures that include your ex. Particularly pictures that you like. Like this one below:
You don't see my ex? Oh, right, that's because I covered him up with white paper and tape. Because that's a damn good photo, and I'd kinda like to keep it. I may have to invest in photo shop.
Well, I'm done for now.
4 comments:
Sorry to hear that Hannah. I got to move home recently for a few months and really enjoyed it, hopefully you can find positives to being home again too. :-) from what I remember, you have an awesome family behind you, and you'll be out the other side of this and moving on with your life before you know it. I haven't blogged for years now either, but I still keep up with my blog reader, and Rachel's blog too. nice to see your blog post pop up on my reader, even if the post itself wasn't filled with good news. Hope you'll blog again soon! Xx
I'm so, so sorry. I've followed you for a while. Wondered why you hadn't posted in a long time. I'm so sorry. Cut your ex out of the pictures you like so you can keep them. I'm so, so sorry. You are a lovely person. Please hang in there.
Wow, Hannah, I'm very sorry! Surely better days are ahead and there's a silver lining somewhere. Thinking about you!!
Soooooo.....you may not even check this anymore, and I noticed the change in your facebook but didn't want to be nosy, and when you originally wrote this post I was without internet....
Anyway, so now I'm catching up and see this. Belated condolences, and (I almost said "but," but there are no "buts") getting to see you flourish via facebook has made me excited for you. I know great things are ahead.
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